Once again its been a stressful week, packing boxes to move, arranging transportation and trucking services, preparing the children for school in another place, and the list continues to go on and on. I honestly didn't start any of my homework until last night, which is usually when I am finishing up the week's projects and assignments.
I had a long day, and thought it would be nice to sit down and do the relaxation exercises. I spent all afternoon running errands with my wife and tying up loose ends before we take off for Pittsburgh this weekend. Then 15 minutes after I got home I went to my last Fire Department meeting. They were all sad to see me go, and wished me the best of luck for the move and the job I landed overseas.
I sat down, took a few sips of water, and started the exercise. At first it helped me relax, but again I had a hard time concentrating. I guess I dozed off to sleep, because just as the exercise was finishing my wife came downstairs and woke me up, asking if I was alright. I was officially worn out for the day, stick a fork in me because I was done.
I tried again today, but must have the most concentration problems ever. The phone rang, my children called for me to come help them, dinner was ready, it just wasn't happening. I either need a sound proof room, or some medication to control my thoughts and ability to focus!
I tried it a third time once I was done with other assignments, the kids were in bed, and my wife was visiting the neighbors. All I could focus on was things I needed to do in the next four days before I left for Pittsburgh. I can't concentrate! I actually got frustrated after the third attempt and gave up.
Then a thought came through my head and I laughed, with the way this semester is going I'll get a chance to do it all over again because I just might have to repeat this class.
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Ah but don't you see, To have this come into your mind, meant you HAVE learned something. Not everyone can benefit from the meditation, that is why there are so many other techniques. I would venture that in your present state of unrest it may be easier for you to journal what has happened to you during your day and try things like the HALT exercise or the breathing exercise to help with the immediate stress you are dealing with while you are moving. I remember what the girls and I went through coming back here after spending 18 months in NY at our family farm. I worked up to 2 days before we left and it was CRAZY trying to get everything done so we could go.
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